Sunday, November 18, 2007

New direction

I feel a little bit lost now that G will be out of therapy. What will I write about now that he is getting kicked out?

This blog had been going in an angry direction, fueled by the speculation of a few online denizens that G has never had any issues, that they were all figments of my imagination and anxiety. I still feel very strongly that I was mistreated and it still hurts. Yes, G is doing wonderfully, but there are times when F and I lie quietly in the dark and wonder about what his quirks mean. Why does a simple bath make him scream like a banshee? Why does he bonk his head repeatedly on things (mostly me)? But I am done worrying about people who have no place in my real life, who will never know my child.

I have enjoyed the few commenters on this blog and I hope that my past posts have not driven them away or convinced them I was truly crazy.

So, if anger and therapy are out, what to discuss? Books? Movies? I think that I will just strive to be honest and interesting about my life and my family. And try to do it more often...

Getting kicked out

Well, after a year of work, worry and fervent wishes, our hopes are about to come true. G is about to get kicked out of the local infants and toddlers program. His progress over the past few months has been astounding and I just don't feel that it's right to take therapists away from other clients who have greater needs.

The OT did the Mullen scales with him and he scored at least age-appropriate on almost everything. It was great to watch, though a little nerve-wracking. We have our last session in a few weeks. We are going to work on spoon use, something that gives him a lot of trouble but not enough to justify therapy. I hope she gives me some good hints I can use.

The PT did some testing with him and he is just about age-appropriate in gross motor. She did say that she thought his walk still looked pretty immature and that we should keep watching it. I think it will improve now that he actually seems to like being in motion.

It's amazing to me that at 13 months everyone was really panicking because G was not mobile in any way. It really seemed that we were looking at a long-term issue. In 5 months he has gone from pretty delayed to pretty much age-appropriate. I can't say right now whether he will eventually need more therapy--I can't say the same about M either. Writing, reading or riding a bike may prove to be very challenging for both of them--or neither of them. Right now it feels like we are in a pretty good place.

I am not sure what to get G's therapists as parting gifts. They have been such a huge help and source of encouragement. If anyone in my tiny readership has ideas, bring 'em on!!